Mugging. Mugging. Mugging.
Gates of hell. There I go.

Weeeeee. I played pool! Ahahahaha. Won 2 out of the 4 games I played. *Grins. Went with Eugene, Glen, Melvin and Farhan. Played for like 3 hours.. Then went to PS foodcourt to me.. And this guy went " Xiao jie ke yi you ni hao ma ma?" I looked up. AND IT WAS RYUJU KOR!!!!! OMG. I was soooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!! Hugged him! Heh. So kawaii leh he.. Hahahahahaha!!!! =D Didn't see him in a looooooong time.. So happy! Heh. Then after that went arcade.. Then went to take NEL home.. And I saw FUJI! Hahaha.. So coincidental.. Haha.. Yup.. Today's the last day I'll be blogging.. I'll be back after EOY.. Gonna mug my heart out from tomorrow onwards. Be back after 11 October! Miss me! =P Happy happy day... =D
You are my first and last.

I screwed my oral big time. Ms Oon is gonna KILL me. MURDER me. Oh God, I can't believe how lame I must have sounded. Argh. Whatever. Shan't think about it anymore. School's boring. Blah.. The only subjects with have on time for EOY are Chemistry, Geography and Social Studies[ I have totally NO IDEA what was covered. ]. Yup. Like WTF? EOY is next next week!!!! Oh well. School sucks. I'm gonna play pool tomorrow.. Wahahahahah.. Or maybe just watch them play lah. Haha.. Yup. That's about it.
If I could turn back time I would make the same mistake again. Maybe that's why its hurting so much now.

Sigh. School's boring. Tests, tests and more tests. And EOY is coming. WTF? Sigh. Have been real moody lately.. I guess I have been reminiscing too much. Too much. Like fuck. The past is the past. Shut me up man. Thought about stuffs.. And I realised that I've became much more vulgar than before. Sigh. Influence maybe, but oh well. Who cares. I've also realised that I'm very judgemental cos I can dislike a person without knowing him/her first. Haha. And I think I have more enemies than friends. True? I'm not sure. Oh who cares. People have their own opinions of me and I ain't gonna care. Hmmm. Sat with Kamini, Cyrene, Audrey and Yvonne during lunch today.. Studied Geog together.. Well, sort of. I miss them so much. And oh, Cyrene tried to strip me.. Hahaha. Kidding.. Sigh. Everything's too messed up, I ain't gonna care. I'm just gonna watch as everything collapses. And put on my nothing's-wrong facade. Yup. Cos it's just me. My thoughts. Another realisation- I'm barred from all emotions. Haha. Damn, I'm stressed. I ain't making sense.
It's not affecting me. It's so NOT. Sigh. I was a FOOL.

Back from chalet. My cousin 21st birthday's. It was quite boring actually. Except I love bbq-ing. Heh. Slept at 5 am the first night. Then the 2nd night slept at 2 plus. Yup.
I've been wondering what I'll be like six years down the road. Hmmm.
I don't care anymore.

Hmm. I'm moody. Sigh. Band performance today. Bloody hell. We fucking screwed up. I'm too ashamed to face the school.
Look here, I'm too disappointed to even get angry. Fuck, even at this point, you fucking lied. I told her we are just friends. Fuck you. You want both that fucking slut and Vic, do you? You are just God-damn hopeless. You're like a fucking stranger now. And I do not wish to go on. You've drained every single bit of hope in me. It made me realized how little I knew about you. Just go be with that fucking slut. Leave Vic alone. You're such a disappointment. To think I actually believed that you really told her that. Ha, I am soo damn naive. I can't trust your words anymore. I can't trust you. You really love to make me feel guilty if I don't believe you huh. I was naive, but from this very moment, I would not believe anything you say. No matter how hard you try, No matter what you do. Guess what? I've given up on you.
Had soccer during P.E. Damn, I ran like hell. I don't know why though. I could have just slacked. But somehow, I didn't.
Random thoughts. I realized how stupid I was to trust in love. To actually believe that everything I thought could be true. Ha. I would not trust anything, anyone from now on. All the reminiscing I've had today, just made me realize what a fool I was. Sigh.
I hate every fucking thing that's happening in my life now. I'm drained out. Too tired to go on.

Here for a project. Man. I'm kinda cranky. I don't know why. Have been thinking about animal abuse. I despise people who eat dog meat. I curse them at every chance I get. It's utterly digusting. Barbaric. And those hit-and-run drivers. Damn you. Animals are living things. They have feelings too. It's a life there. At least have the responsibility to send it to a vet of something. Cowards. I don't know why I thought of it. After seeing a stray cat today, it sort of triggered this. Yeah.
I don't wish to hear anymore. I feel like I can no longer trust you. Even if I really want to.

Fuck you. I fucking hate you so much. To think I trusted you. To think I treated you as my good friend. To think I put in so much good words for you. Fuck. Liar. Fucking liar. Fucking two timing bastard. Fuck you. Fuck Melodie. Go be with that slut. Having a fling with her best friend's sister's boyfriend? WOW. Just fuck off. I would rather choose not to believe that. But I saw it with my own eyes. Fuck, you were such a disappointment. You deserve that slap. And fuck, I hate your guts. I don't believe you. I can't believe you. Just a fling. Oh shut the fuck up.
There. What's going on? I've found out my good friend/ best guy friend is actually a two timing bastard. I've loads to get off my chest. There's one, I've another.
The September/ October birthday thing, it's kinda pissing me off. I shouldn't just shut up anymore. This is not for anyone specifically, but the whole thing. Everything. What's with all the freaking expensive presents? Yeah, it's nice and sweet.. Getting what they really want.. But not to that extent! Just think, is it fair? The June celebrations, less that $10 per person celebrating for 3 people! And we had so much fun. Ziya's birthday, we had so much fun even after we lost the present! You all are too caught up in making it the best for your partners, I guess you guys sort of neglected the others, or me alone. Think of it from my point of view alright. I ain't exactly a rich girl.
If you think that I'm a bitch, so be it. I ain't gonna fucking care. I'm sick. I'm tired. Fuck everything.

I played pool yesterday! Ah yes. (: Went to Monstercue. Yup... Today. Went towning. I'm like. Broke. Don't know what I spend on man. Argh. Went to Far East LJS. Saw Kamini.. Ahaha. So nice of her lah.. Bought my fries for me.. Then saw Cyrene and Yvonne.. Cyrene so pretty!! ((: Haha.. Then.. Don't know lah.. Walked around.. Here's a summary of things that I want:
Blossomz skirt - $35 or something
Afterlife purple top - $24
Freshbox top - $18.90
Adidas black and pink leather bag - $69
Ahaha. Amount of money I have now: NONE. $0. Zilch. Nothing. Bah. Can the sky rain money down or something? =( Sigh.
This whole birthday thing is kinda pissing me off. Just shut it.

Music Exchange rocks. St. Hilda's rocks. Man, they are good. At the start, it seemed like it wasn't interesting. But we went out for lunch in sections. Like 30 clarinetists. COOL. Then we had to perform. Band by band. Woodgrove went, they were good. We went. Man, We suck. Big time. Then St. Hilda's. They were DAMN good. Then we played together. Man, 3 bands, 170+ members. It sounded damn good. Played games. Cheered. Was so damn fun. (: Oh yeah. Yesterday. Met Val at PS. Wanted to play pool. Went to Zone X to find Eugene and Ren and Farhan. Then went to Paradigm. Ian came. Didnt play, watched the guys play though. Still fun. Haha.. Then went to Long John's to eat.. And Val and Ian left.. So I walked around with the remaining people at PS. Went to play arcade. Or more like watch them. Lol. Interesting. Then.. Bought dinner for my sis and went home. Wanted to sleep at like.. 12 plus? But at 1 plus Ren called. To disturb me. Haha. So I talked with Eugene and Farhan and him on the phone till like.. Oh.. Almost 4. Hahaha.. Felt damn sick when I went to school this morning though. Don't know why. Woke up at like 5.30 to 6. Ahh. Bloody tired. Long post ehh? Longest. For now. Toodles.
Gonna live life like that. With smiles, not frowns.

Here I am. (: Hmmmmmm. Went to school today. Blah.. Time passed fast. Mas Cheok was being irritating as usual. Screwed up bitch. Yup. Sigh. I hope everything will be fine for everyone.. Bought my purple and hot pink Giordano tops yesterday.. =D That's bout it. Can't think of anything else to blog..
I hope everything will be fine..

Here I am. Holidays are here. But guess what? I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL THE WHOLE WEEK!!!! Damn it. What a holiday. -.- Went to play pool with Ziya and Eugene yesterday. So fun! So into pool now.. (: Saw Shunming! Lol. So surprising. He actually recognises me. Went for dinner then Farhan came.. Wanted to continue playing pool but there was no free table already.. :( Then I had to go. Hmm. That's about it. Maybe I'll be going out later.. (:
I've been reminiscing. A lot. Living in my perfect world.

I'm bored. And I'm sick. =\ Sigh. Oh. Teachers' Day performance was a success!!! =D Everything went fine.. Had fun.. After that, went to PS with Val, Ian, Ziya, Fuji and Eugene.. Den Fuji and Ian left.. Eugene wanted to play pool so we went to Singapore Shopping Center[ It's such a corny name! ] But it was full.. So Eugene didn't get to play pool.. =( Den we decided we were all tired and went home.. Yup.. So fun.. Lalala!
I'm better off on my own.